I am beginning to get settled in back at home. I missed my family! But, now I miss my new “family” in Hawaii. It is a hard thing to describe, especially to one that may have never been on a trip like this. It’s so hard to come back and explain all that happened…to share all that God did…the big things, the little things. It’s just hard.
It’s also hard being home and knowing of the GREAT need in the place where you left. My eyes well up with tears thinking about the beginnings of a ministry that I helped start…and then had to leave. I cringe thinking about the resources and just the sheer number of Christians in East TN…all the while knowing that the place I left is drowning without Jesus and in desperate need of more HELP.
How do you reconcile it all in your heart? How do you go on with your daily activities while your heart is torn in half – can it even be possible that your heart can be in 2 places at once? By the end of our trip I was very ready to get home and see my family…but sad at the same time to leave my new friends in Hawaii and the people we were serving. Now that I’m home, I’m having a hard time even thinking about starting school up with my kids again! It’s like my mind isn’t ready to get back to my routine again…
It’s funny, I’ve been on many mission trips in my lifetime. Everytime I come home it’s the same. I’m ready to go back again. Lord, here am I….send me.
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