I am a blogger. I have grown to love this place (and many others) where words flow from hearts outstretched before Him. I have met and gotten to know treasured friends in this craziness called “the worldwide web.” I have been inspired, encouraged and challenged in my faith and in my mothering through reading many of your blogs. I have found an outlet for sharing my heart…and have found that often it is easier for me to type it out than to speak it outloud. It has been good.
But, in being real…I struggle. Is my blog self-seeking? Am I wanting to compete with other bloggers? Do I want more followers more than I want the glory of God to shine from each post?? Is it all about Him or all about me? I have questioned my own motives many times…and prayed for the grace to only write words He would have me write.
I have looked at my blog as a ministry many times in the past. It is my prayer that my heart would be one of humility and grace when sharing in this little place. But, I want it to be about Him and His grace in my life…nothing I’ve done, but all Him.
I am not alone in this battle. One of my favorite bloggers, Ann Voskamp, shares a blogger’s prayer. Her prayer is my prayer, too.
from her prayer:
“May I write not for subscribers…but only for Thy smile.
May my daily affirmation be in the surety of my atonement,
not the size of my audience.“
read all of the prayer at A Holy Experience: A Blogger’s Prayer…she has a free download as well, so that you can print and pray, too. 🙂
I am struggling with this very same thing right now, Candace. I love Ann’s blog, but had not read that post. Thanks for leading me there.