Friends, God is so good to me and I just HAVE to share!
Many times in my life, before I do something that I know God has led me to do, I struggle a lot in the days leading up to that event. A few weeks ago I had a few nagging thoughts about my trip to Hawaii, but today those thoughts hit me full force.
“You are a bad mom to leave your kids for 10 days…”
“You shouldn’t even be going, you are too messed up…”
“Hannah has been having meltdowns b/c you are a bad mom and leaving your kids…”
And those are just a few of the thoughts I’ve been struggling with. Now, I KNOW these are LIES from the enemy. The enemy is trying to distract me or even get me not to go where God has called me to go. I had these same struggles before going to Alaska 1.5 years ago on a mission trip…I also have these thoughts before “smaller” things like VBS, singing in church, going out to an event for the day, etc.
However, what I didn’t realize til tonight was that the God that I know loves me, is also the God of perfect timing and had a special gift in store for me.
Let me back up, a few weeks ago I looked longingly at Beth Moore’s summer Bible study for the summer called Me, Myself and Lies. I wanted a group to do the study with, but it just wasn’t coming together…so I told myself I just wouldn’t participate this summer. I didn’t have time anyway, I had VBS, mission trip, etc.
However, a few days ago I really, really sensed a nudging from the Lord that this study was for ME. I sensed Him saying to me that I needed to go ahead and order the book even if it’s just for me and even if I’m not on the same schedule as Beth Moore’s blog study.
Guess what arrived in the mail TODAY? My Bible study book, of course! 🙂 I sat down tonight and did the first week’s lesson. Here is the ending to the lesson:
“The enemy of your soul would love to stifle you with self-condemnation, lies, and ill-fitting words so your thoughts become a jumbled mess that controls you. He would love for you to keep listing the same old negative, untruthful stuff you’ve always listed. He would love to keep throwing junk into that potential treasure chest so there’s no room for truth. Girl, no more. We are going to start digging into our thesauros and discerning what is true about us.”
There are several verses in this lesson that I’m going to write down and carry around with me this week.
God knew what I needed today. He knew that I was going to start the study late, He knew that I needed to start it TODAY and not 1-2 weeks ago with the group. He knew that my book would be arriving on the very day that I needed that encouragement from Him. What a good and gracious God we have…one Whose timing is more perfect than we can ever imagine…one Who loves us so deeply that He cares about each and every struggle that we have and seeks to comfort and encourage us in the midst of a hard day.