I Must Praise Him!

Last night was the first night of the book study, The Ministry of Motherhood, in my home. God has been so faithful to me that I must share!! I must praise Him for His faithfulness and graciousness in my life, especially when I have such an example of His goodness to me!

For over a year now I have felt compelled to open my home and invite some ladies over to do some type of Bible study or book study to encourage mothers. As I was reading The Ministry of Motherhood for myself, I realized that it would be a great study to do as a group! However, I put it off and put it off. Everyone is so busy. No one needs another thing to do.

But, God would not let this go in my heart…so, a few weeks ago I invited local friends on facebook and sent out an email – just praying for God to bring whoever He would have come…and I left it all in His hands. I have felt for quite some time that we, as mothers, need to encourage one another. We need to be encouraged in our calling and in the ministry of motherhood. I need it as much as anyone.

Meanwhile, my depression meds have not been working (as I mentioned awhile back, but I have been too frustrated or having wishful thoughts about them *maybe* working that I have put off going back to the doc.)

So, over the weekend I really, really hit a low period. On Monday, the day of our FIRST meeting with this study on motherhood, I was a terrible mother. I was so irritable, I yelled at them, I had no patience, I stayed in bed for quite awhile…trying not to cry. Asking God (once again) why in the WORLD He made me a mother knowing how bad I would be at this…

All the while thinking, WHAT A JOKE that I am having a book study on motherhood in MY HOME, now of all times. ha! I mean really, HA!

But, ya’ll. God is just so faithful. I knew that the enemy did not want this meeting to happen. I knew that the enemy does not want to encourage moms. I knew that the enemy wanted me to cancel it – even tempting me to do so as late as 5pm on Monday!

First of all, we did meet together. 6 other mothers came to my home in the pouring rain and we shared together. 3 more have committed and are coming next week. We talked about the Introduction to this book, we discussed some of our frustrations as mothers, we shared prayer requests, we prayed and had some snacks.

And by the time of our meeting, I had not one doubt that I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing!! That is the miracle, friends. Usually when I am at my lowest, I doubt and think so irrationally that there is no telling what I’m going to be feeling from one moment to the next. But, God was so faithful to allow me this time of sweet fellowship with other moms.

I know the timing of all this is no accident. I know that the enemy wants me to doubt God and to doubt His calling in my life. But, tonight the enemy was defeated and God was glorified! In my weakness, HE IS STRONG.

“Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it {it = thorn in his flesh}away from me. But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.‘ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, than I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-10.