That fear is not from God…

Dear one,

That fear, the worry, the anxiety, the hopelessness…none of that is from God. He doesn’t give us a spirit of fear. The enemy is prowling around seeking those he can devour. BUT GOD. God gives us POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND. If we know that fear & worry & anxiety & hopelessness is from the enemy, we’ve got to do battle. I don’t know about you but I’m not going to let the enemy win. I’m not going down without a fight. Better yet, because of the power of the Holy Spirit that lives within me I HAVE VICTORY. I’m not actually going down at all. I know the end of the story. We are overcomers because of the blood of Jesus.

So get up today, friends, and preach the POWER of the gospel to your own heart. Turn this verse into your Scriptural affirmation for today: God has not given me a spirit of fear, but He is giving me POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND. I am claiming His truth and walking in the spirit and standing on the promises of God! Who is with me??!!

Psalm 56 is for you

Psalm 56 is for you today.

For the one struggling with fear.

The one doing battle with her own thoughts.

The one in a season of tears.

The one the enemy is prowling around.

The one who is fearful of the opinion of man.

Psalm 56 is for you.

Read this portion from the Passion Translation and take heart! Repeat this verse with me today, “With God on my side I will not be afraid of what comes.” (verse 11)

“But in the day that I’m afraid, I lay all my fears before you and trust in you with all my heart. What harm could a man bring to me? With God on my side I will not be afraid of what comes. The roaring praises of God fill my heart, and I will always triumph as I trust his promises.

“You’ve kept track of all my wandering and my weeping. You’ve stored my many tears in your bottle—not one will be lost. For they are all recorded in your book of remembrance. The very moment I call to you for a father’s help the tide of battle turns and my enemies flee. This one thing I know: God is on my side! I trust in the Lord. And I praise him! I trust in the Word of God. And I praise him! What harm could man do to me? With God on my side I will not be afraid of what comes. My heart overflows with praise to God and for his promises. I will always trust in him.”

This time I’m not getting back in the car…

There have been 2 times in my life when anxiety has manifested itself physically in my body. (As opposed to the racing, obsessive thoughts that were my typical manifestation.)
The first time was nearly 13 years ago when I was walking into Walmart with 3 babies in tow. Just getting there had been monumental. I was on the verge of tears all the time. I was tired. I was hormonal. 3 babies in 3 years did quite the number on me. Just walking into the grocery store seemed impossible. What would I do if one (or heaven forbid 2) of them started crying? How would I fit groceries into the cart with 2 toddlers and a car seat carrier? What if I couldn’t make it through the store without crying?
In that moment I felt panic well up within me, in my chest, & I got back in the car and drove home. I couldn’t do it.
13 years later I’m here again but I’m not getting back in the car. I’m fighting. I’m learning to breathe. Literally & figuratively. And there are 3 main things helping me learn to breathe deeply in this season. Yes, lifestyle change is HUGE. What we put into our bodies and how we move our bodies will help with our mental health SO MUCH. But, for today, these the immediate things helping me…
1. God’s Word is a balm to my soul. I am once again falling in love with the comfort & peace He gives me when I sit in His presence. Oh, He is so good. Summer in the Psalms has been just what my heart needed. I have started a collection of verses that I am writing & putting in my phone for quick recall.
2. Breathing in essential oils in the moment of anxiety. For several moments. Y’all. The research is astounding for oils & emotions. Google it. Read pub med articles. Get high quality oils & start smelling them. Be weird. It’s worth it. (Go here to read more of my story with oils.) 
3. Wise, trusted mentors & friends. I happen to have several of these amazing people in my life. One is my actual counselor. Several other friends will meet with me when I need it or “meet me” on Marco Polo. They speak truth from God’s Word to me. They read pages to me from books to encourage me. They talk me off the ledge of bad decisions I want to make in the moment.  They share their own experiences from years past. They help me not feel crazy. ha!  We all need a few people like that in our lives, right!?? 
“For no matter where I am, even when I’m far from home, I will cry out to you… When I’m feeble & overwhelmed, guide me into your glory where I am safe & sheltered. Ps. 61:2.
P.S. I wrote this a few days ago and already I’m breathing easier…life is a journey, so many seasons. I pray that through it all I can give Him glory for all He is doing…in the good and the bad and IN THE WAITING! 

Five Verses to Renew My Mind

To be transformed by the renewing of our minds we must constantly be in that renewing process. It takes work and being intentional about what we put into our minds.

I want to share some Scriptures that are helping me right now! We all have different struggles, so these verses may not apply to your particular struggle. But, I pray they will be a starting point for you! Do a little digging and find Scripture that pertains to the battles you are facing right now.

What exactly do I do with these verses? I write them. Pray them. Write them again. Read them again. Meditate on them. Put them in my phone. Have them set as alarms on my phone throughout the day. Write on index cards and carry with me. All the things.

Psalm 139:14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well.” Most of us have things we don’t love about ourselves. But God is teaching me that I need to embrace who He made me to be in order for me to fully live out His calling on my life. I’m a work in progress on this one. 

Psalm 37:23-24 TPT The steps of the God-pursuing ones follow firmly in the footsteps of the Lord, and God delights in every step they take to follow him.  If they stumble badly they will still survive, for the Lord lifts them up with his hands.” Don’t you love that? EVEN IF we stumble BADLY, we will survive, for the Lord will lift us up! 

Ephesians 2:10 “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” He created me to use me! I am His handiwork! He prepared good works for me to do IN ADVANCE.

Psalm 27:1 “The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear?” I need not fear what others think or don’t think of me…GOD alone is my salvation and my light.

Psalm 61:2 TPT From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” This is one of my favorite verses for anxiety…when I’m overwhelmed, LEAD ME TO YOU, GOD. Yes. Yes. Yes. 


Honest, Imperfect and Beautiful

This quote has me in a puddle of tears this morning. I have tried to share authentically about my struggles online for a few years now. But have I really been honest with you? Better yet, am I being honest with myself? What if I sought to live my own beautiful & honest life instead of what I think you want to read or see here on social media? What if I lived my life that way? And what if my beautiful isn’t beautiful to you? (These are painful questions for me, friends.)

I have lived under the lie that I am insecure and not confident and not ok with who I am for so long that I’m finding it hard to break free. You see, I *thought* I was being honest by sharing those struggles…and in those moments I was being as honest as I knew to be.

But God. Those things actually are not true. I am not insecure. I am whole and free and strong and SECURE IN CHRIST. I am COMPLETE in Christ. I am FREE and FORGIVEN. I am a NEW CREATION. I am a child of God. I’m no longer a slave to fear. I have VICTORY in Jesus. I am flawed yet being perfected & renewed day by day. I am STRONG because of HIS POWER that lives IN ME. I serve a RESURRECTED Savior who is ALIVE and lives in me.

If I believe He is alive and that He conquered the grave, then I can choose to believe He is resurrecting me, too.

Y’all. I feel it in my bones. He is doing something new. He is changing me. The resurrected King is RESURRECTING ME.  Aren’t you so beyond thankful that God doesn’t STOP doing new things or give up on us? Just because I have seen myself in light of my weakness for {FAR TOO LONG} doesn’t mean that is who I am. Just because it seemed impossible yesterday doesn’t mean that it can’t happen TODAY. Just because I see something through the lens of defeat doesn’t mean that God can’t create BEAUTY from those ASHES. Y’all. He is doing a new thing. And the choice is mine: am I going to believe Him for it or not?!

New mercies. Every morning. Great is Thy faithfulness.

Resurrecting by Elevation Worship

Go listen to this song Resurrecting by Elevation Worship today and let’s make the choice to BELIEVE GOD.  (click on the link if you’re reading this post in an email.)